My busy routine and the ongoing demands of working mostly 6 days a week, makes me feel like I am on a treadmill; the one thing I thought I would never step onto. Life is by nature a routine, with basic demands that are always ongoing.
I write songs, play guitar and sing, that’s my passion and love, that’s my bridge home; and for the past couple of years the demands of making a living, have given me very little time and energy to dedicate to music. I trust when the time is right I will get out and play again, I know this will happen.
To ‘make a living’ I am a disability care worker, yes teddy's make great disability carers. I am very grateful for the work, it’s very challenging, humbling, reflective and rewarding. I feel blessed and very grateful for all that I have in my life. However, the demands of my ongoing work and routine, with no reprieve in sight, has become the catalyst that keeps pushing me to seek out the underlying peace beyond circumstance.
Through the demand and tiredness of it all, I can see the loop of my life moving into ever smaller circles, I find myself at times stopping and falling onto the treadmill of my life, surrendering and letting go, not by choice; but purely through circumstance.
When I stop on the treadmill ‘by its very nature’ launches me off through the air like a cartoon character to another place; which is affectionately and endlessly referred to as ‘here’, a place where I find myself resting in the peace beyond the treadmill; beyond circumstance.
In my life the suffering and intensity of situations has always been the greatest opportunity, the catalyst to seek out, and rest in peace. No matter what circumstances I have found myself in, love has endlessly pursued me, and never abandoned me, regardless of me abandoning it.
The routine of life no matter what shape it’s taken, preferred or non-preferred, has always been, and always will be, the opportunity to seek out the underlying peace beyond circumstance, beyond routine.
