I was driving along Myocum road at s
unset tonight, I was tired and wanted to get home. It's such a beautiful winding, bumpy narrow country rural road. There's something so alive and refreshing in it's imperfection. There were no other cars, and with the window open, the fresh cool air was so alive, the sounds of frogs and the scent of flowers came in through the window.
As I drove past the dairy along Myocum road, I saw the cows in the fields; and the smell of cow dung transported me back to India and the villages around Tiruvannamalai. I was no longer on my way home, but could have been anywhere in the world.
In the fading light; tired and looking forward to getting home I could see how I am always on my way somewhere, always the thought of when I arrive, then I will relax and be at peace, when I have a shower, when I have eaten, when I am on the day bed and lying down 'then' I will relax and be at peace. I can see that this goes on and on, there is always something else to do, somewhere else to go. Endless postponement ~ Whether driving and tired, relaxing on the day bed, doing what I enjoy, or doing something I don't enjoy. It's now or never. I will never arrive at the ideal place where I will stop relax and be at peace.
As I was driving through all of this beautiful countryside, the cool breeze woke me, and the fading light reminded me that arrival is an idea, it never happens in the future.
As I drove I could have been anywhere in the world, the tiredness left me, and the beauty of everything embraced me, and I found myself no longer waiting to get home.
Sweet Surrender ~ http://kundamusic.com/track/646432/sweet-surrender?feature_id=123461