I can try and bring about positive change in my life, and to the world, but the priority, and ultimately the only thing that matters, is to rest in the underlying truth of who I am. Good and bad change is always happening in the world, clouds in an infinite sky, fireworks that light up my life.
When the festival is over, and the fireworks have faded, and I finally take my last breath, the only thing that will matter, isn't what has changed in the world for better or worse; but have I spent any time at all, getting to know this underlying beauty and silence, have I spent time with that, have I fallen in love with that ?
I find myself endlessly busy, on the run, I work, sleep, play and there's everything in-between, with all my preferences, resistance, separation and conflict, because I am out of touch with the underlying.
The pain of grasping at clouds and needing fireworks to light up my life, is very reflective and revealing. I always find a reason to postpone stopping and sitting in silence, and meeting the one I have always longed for.
I avoid peace~ Ironic but true, and it's my responsibility to myself, to make the comitment to stop and keep quiet.
If not now when ?
