BLOG - REFLECTIONS & INSPIRATION


I am grateful for this opportunity to share these writings with you. For me writing brings reflection, clarity, insight and healing. The real healing through writing is realizing that my need to keep quiet, is far greater than my need to express.

There are also quotes from different people. I find these to be revealing and inspirational reminders of what's important in this precious life; and for me that's to stop, and rest in the peace that's always here.


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THE GREAT MISUNDERSTANDING - A VERSION OF A PAPAJI STORY  

 

A man ordered a new Porsche sports car; he was very excited, and for weeks was looking forward to take delivery of his beautiful new $200,000 car. He thought about it, he dreamt about it, he was online viewing the vehicle endlessly. Finally the luxurious German engineered masterpiece was delivered to his home. He was overwhelmed by the red ...colour and sleek lines, and the powerful rumble of the engine as it was driven into the driveway. In awe he admired its beauty; Opening the solid car door, the sweet smell of leather and newness overtook his senses. As he shut the door and sat in the contoured comfort of the white leather seat, he felt surrounded by luxury and beauty. Gripping the smooth race crafted steering wheel; he took in the reality of his new acquisition, and the status and admiration that comes with such a prestigious motor vehicle. 

He sunk back into the seat and was overwhelmed, euphoric, blissful, happy, silent and at peace; something extraordinary was happening for some seconds or minutes; he wasn’t aware of time. 

He concluded that this feeling was because he now owned this unique and luxurious vehicle; and knowing all that it represented; all the status and admiration that it would bring. 

THIS IS THE GREAT MISUNDERSTANDING, he wasn’t feeling so overwhelmingly happy, at peace and blissful because he now owned the vehicle, but in reality when he sat in the car, in those seconds, in those minutes, he finally had what he desired, and he no longer desired anything, he was desireless for that short time, and in that place there was peace, happiness, bliss, fulfilment and silence. 

It isn’t what we have or what we acquire that brings the happiness and fulfilment, but the state of not desiring. In the moments of not wanting anything, is the place of bliss, silence, peace happiness and fulfilment. When we misunderstand why we feel so at peace and happy, and attribute it to acquiring something, and not to the fact that it’s the state of not desiring anything that makes us feel so at peace - That is the great misunderstanding, and if we don’t see that, we continue to 'desire and acquire' and miss seeing that happiness peace and fulfilment has nothing to do with anyone, or the acquisition of anything. 

The song 'Everything we see' from the album 'Surrender' -  https://kundamusic.com/track/643769/everything-we-see

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

THE ONE CHORD SYMPHONY - A PLACE TO MEET THAT'S BEYOND DIFFERENCES  

 

There's a wonderful young 26 year old autistic man that I have played music with for the past 6 years. I am grateful to him for reminding me of the beauty, simplicity and connection that music and song can bring into our lives. 

When I was 13 years old, I was like many kids, I wanted to play guitar, but I didn’t want to practice and learn more; so the few chords I did know, I played and played and played. Just one chord over and over, two chords over and over. I had to get everything I could out of what I had !

I put my ear on the side of the acoustic guitar and listened, I became aware that a D chord wasn’t just a D chord, but contained every note, every sound, it was a symphony in itself. How D is strummed and picked, either soft or loud, all the endless possibilities and expressions.

I realized it’s no different to relating to people, you have to spend time with someone to really get to know them, to develop a relationship, to know the depth, complexity and beauty of them.

I can play a D chord and it's familiar, I know it, and it can appear to be repetitious and boring, so I move onto the next chord. It can appear to be boring, so I play another chord, but when I stay with D, and delve into the complexity and depth of D, then the next chord will come along just at the right time, not through rejecting D, but through deeply discovering and meeting D. In that openness and spontaneity something magic happens.

When I play music with my autistic friend Luke, I am grateful to experience the simplicity, spontaneity and magic of music. In that openness and spontaneity is where something simple but profound happens through music. It's beyond technical ability, beyond autism and differences, it's a non verbal meeting in joy, peace and aliveness. 

I continue to play music and sing in what could be defined as a healing and therapeutic approach to playing music with people with physical and mental challenges.

'My Album Surrender' - https://www.kundamusic.com/  

 

 

THERE IS NO ESCAPE 

 

There is no escape from having to sleep; we leave behind all the demands, thinking and busyness that happens throughout the day; we close our eyes and enjoy the peace that sleep brings. From the richest to the poorest, no matter what country we are from, or what age, we all have to eventually return to this peace; and recharge. It’s kind of like a science fiction movie, where all of the human beings are busy like bees caught up in all the dramas of the day, and then at night, we close our eyes and sleep; ultimately, eventually we have no choice but to sleep. (And sometimes during the day) In sleep all that I identify with disappears, and I rest in this peace. What an incredible phenomenon that I take for granted. 
The song - "Eyes are wide open who is the seer" - https://kundamusic.com/track/643767/eyes-are-wide-ope

 

 

 

 

 

 

SECURITY & SPIRITUALITY  

 

 

It is easy to say "God's will" or "I see God In all", when the mind and senses are pampered and the ego is inflated. It does not demand spiritual heroism to demonstrate brave equanimity when life is smooth and fortune is smiling. But just as night follows day, their counterparts follow them. Then is the time to demonstrate true equilibrium of mind ! 

Bhagavad Gita - Daily readings by Swami Venkatesananda 
 

Kunda Music https://kundamusic.com/home

 

 

THE HARD DRIVE IN MY HEAD 

 

I woke this morning; Sunday yahoo no work. It's been a very full on work week! I wanted to stay in bed and just slow down and relax. I started to breath slowly with the intention of not engaging in all the usual thoughts. things to do etc. I really needed to stop and plug into some peace and silence. I realize this is the place that connects me to joy, aliveness, balance, peace and well being; this is the source of energy; the recharge station. 

No ...surprise ! the incredible thought process kicked in, in relation to the past and future; and the problem solving capacity; amazing! It started doing what it does best, ‘it’s always on’ and looking for something to engage in, resolve, a truly incredible piece of technology. It loves a challenge. 

My mind, my hard drive; has been programmed though all the experiences of my life. It has incredible memory / data storage and the response and learning capability given any situation, is a marvel to behold, and the problem solving capacity is miraculous! 

Thoughts were randomly coming up, the movie I saw last night, the song I heard, pizza so many random ridiculous thoughts, that are an absolute waste of time. These thoughts weren’t chosen by me to engage in, these thoughts were just rolling in randomly. Like movies, a T.V. channel on automatic perpetual motion. 

When my attention is taken by one subject /thought process, I identify with it, and become totally involved, and go with it. 
It was so obvious that this mind / hard drive has a life of its own, and has nothing to do with me. When I identify with what is being presented, I get totally involved, no difference between me and the movie. But in these moments; in this awareness, I can see clearly what is actually going on; and in seeing this, there is peace.

 I am so grateful when this happens.                           

The song 'Everything We See Is Just A Dream' from the album 'Surrender' - https://kundamusic.com/track/643769/everything-we-see… 

(Photo from - 'The Daily Perspective' https://shperspectives.wordpress.com/2012/11/04/how-your-brain-forgets/ )

 

 

                                                                                                                     

COME HOME TO WHERE I ALREADY AM  

 

THE EVER FAITHFUL BELOVED AWAITS WITH OPEN ARMS, PATIENTLY, ETERNALLY, FOR ME TO ABANDON MY INFACTUATION, OBSESSION,  INFIDELITY AND UNFAITHFULNESS; AND COME HOME.

 

                                                                        

                                                                       Kunda Music -  https://kundamusic.com/home 

                                   Listen to the song 'Sweet Surrender' from the album 'Surrender' 

                          https://kundamusic.com/track/646432/sweet-surrender?feature_id=123461

 

 

               

 

 

A BIRD IN THE SKY WISHING FOR WINGS 

 

There’s no way in and no way out                                                                        

You can bang on the door 

You can scream and shout 

 

There’s no magic key no payment to make 

A begging bowl’s only useful 

To a king that is fake 

 

Wanting the profound 

Simple won’t do 

Simple became profound 

While tying up my shoe 

 

The hard drive in my head 

Is a rebel without a cause 

To enter that world 

I could well be Santa Claus 

 

I’ve been addicted to words all my life through 

There’s no where to run 

And nothing to do 

 

Heard all this before 

I get ten out of ten for living in theory 

Life is too short 

To be contracted and dreary 

 

I’ve read all the books 

I can chant and sing 

But none of it helps 

I am a bird in the sky 

Wishing for wings

 

Kunda Music - https://kundamusic.com/home

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

THE DUST WILL REMAIN  

 

Before dawn I recalled a dream I had last night. I remembered my Father; and how hard he worked; every day with so little time to do the things he loved; he worked into his late 60's. And my Mum was endlessly doing 'housework' there was always something to do, she almost never stopped.        

As dawn broke, and still in a half dream state, the dream turned into a fearful reflection and realization, that I was repeating my Fathers and Mothers life. I say this with love, respect and deep appreciation for my Mother and Father. 

My life has changed of recent time having just recovered from shingles and various other dents to my body. 

I have always been so particular of how I keep my home. Clean orderly beautiful and nurturing. The past few months I have had to let go of everything being up to a certain self imposed standard. I can see the fine line between neurotic obsesive habitual behaviour, and simply keeping my home beautiful in a relaxed way. 

I can see my tendency to turn my life into a stressful pre-occupation with work and all the other day to day demands and 'commitments" I avoid taking time for myself to stop and sit on the day bed and enjoy the beauty of nature that's all around me, 

It's now sunrise, and as the light streams into my bedroom and I look around, in the brightness of the morning light, spider webs and dust on the cupboard next to my bed is revealed and magnified. My tendency has always been to immediately remedy what I see as an 'uacceptable situation'. 

Instead I walked out onto the verandha and sat on the day bed in the new morning light; feeling the warmth on my face, that magnified and revealed the stillness and peace that's here when I stop 'doing' 

I can see that this precious life is short; and it gives me the opportunity to see what's important. 

In the light of day I can see all that has to be done, and I can also see the need to stop and rest in the underlying beauty that's always here. 

Long after I am gone; the dust will remain.                                         

   

Kunda Music - www.kundamusic.com                      

 

THIS IS YOUR LIFE  

 

 

                                               Kunda Music - https://kundamusic.com/home